我叫埃米莉

天有不测风云，正在事业家庭都美满的空档，作家和妻子一同开车回家的途中出了车祸（看到这里要表示一下，开车期间一定杜绝嬉戏打闹，不要觉得自己是老司机就可以掉以轻心了，一定要将注意力集中在驾驶上！）。女主正在家里期待父母回家为自己过生日，结果只等到了母亲去世的消息。 葬礼之后作家一蹶不振，精神情况变得越来越糟糕，被送去了精神病院。女主那时候14岁，正值波澜壮阔的青春期，遭遇母亲离世，父亲疯掉的重创，不得不被送到养父母家去生活。养父母对女主虽好，但是女主从小就受作家父亲的熏陶，对世俗生活有点反感。

如果我是个男孩，如果我有一辆车，我要带着让我心动的那个女孩去环岛，她会有一双狡黠的眼睛，像一只漂亮的流浪猫。海风下她的头发像水里的海藻。她会看着我的眼睛讲很多话，我会安静地听，但偶尔脑袋里也会思考，她的皮肤摸起来会不会像是慕斯蛋糕。也许我会脱下她的裙子，但绝不是在那晚。在日出时，我们的孤独手牵着手，一起走向大海深处。

A fact is a point of view, and a view can change.

昨天傍晚，不想干别的事情，无聊翻出了这部片子来看。起源可能是前一天bilibili上刷到一部电影的剪辑，来豆瓣搜了一下发现剧情我没有很喜欢，但从它的相关推荐里找到的这部。

整部电影色调都有北欧那种特有的阴沉，氤氲笼罩，Emily就像沉溺在了无边大海里的鱼，忧郁和痛苦席卷而来。当时七点左右看完觉得，啊好独特的一部片子，我要马上写下影评记录下来，但因为该是做饭的时间了，就放到了现在来写，竟然一时间回忆不怎么起应该从何说起，应该写些什么，就记得淡淡的一丝悲伤忧郁的感觉了。

怎么说，本ENFP典型快乐小狗其实真的无法感同身受她的处境和感受，奇奇怪怪的一个人属于是。但毕竟是主人公，对人物的性格用几个简单的事例进行阐释和强化，也算是可接受，而那个男孩子一见钟情，几天内为了她不管不顾，开着外祖父的车和一大后备箱的用品就能直接横跨几百公里，就是非常的不真实，当成爱情片可以一乐。

不过确实也有让我感动的地方。在Emily溺水而男孩子把她救起来的时候，她突然紧紧抱住了他，终于接纳也终于信任他的感觉是真的眼眶瞬间湿润。还有反复提及的触电的感觉，头蹭在锁骨上，嘴唇接触缠绵，都是爱情里很富有想象的画面，特别是他们深夜在帐篷里手指在手臂上滑动那一幕拍的非常的唯美。

或许这是她的一部自我救赎的片子，也或许是他的，也可能是她父亲的，但总之，能解开心里的结，继续过下这个糟糕的人生，也是一种解脱吧。

每一部青春成长题材的电影都藏着一个面对未知现实的慌乱。但并不只有青春期的孩子会面对未知现实的慌乱，因为人的一生始终在无可选择的与那些让人兴奋的、紧张的、期盼的、抗拒的、迎刃而解的、难以承受的……改变狭路相逢。那些成年人在孩子面前所表现出来的老道与强大，不过是过来人的星点儿优势罢了。在改变带来的未知面前，所有人可能会因为无措而选择愤怒，因为怯懦而选择逃避，因为无助而选择另类，因为孤独而选择封闭……无论他是个孩子，还是已经为人父母。

《我叫埃米丽》用“少女寻父”这样一个公路片加上青春片的外壳，坦诚地讲述了孩子以及父母面对生活抛出的无经验现实问题时的慌乱姿态以及寻求解脱时的挣扎。温情地道出，面对诸如“失去”、“孤独”之类超出当下承受范围的现实时，悲伤、崩溃等消极情绪都是应该被正视与谅解的。因为无论是谁都是人生的探路者，即便睿智、即便成年、即便被贴着父母的标签、即便掌握着人生终极谜题答案，但感受、领悟、接受、拥抱生活这一过程都需要亲身实践。

女主角埃米丽在14岁时生日当天，因为一场车祸失去了母亲，也令她父亲罗伯特陷入崩溃。一贯用自然科学与哲学思辨寻求未知现实答案的成功作家罗伯特，没能像他初任父亲时那样依靠哲学获得生命的“通透”，反而在“疯癫”的路上越走越远，在疯人院里逃避他最后的挚爱，埃米丽。而因寄养生活历尽颠沛流离的埃米丽却始终认为父亲是被迫禁闭在疯人院的。生活的不幸让埃米丽拒绝一切示好，她用冷漠与愤怒把自己与外界疏离得愈发格格不入。她沉浸在悲伤的深渊中，只有母亲的手链、曾经与父亲海边的回忆、每个月和生日那天父亲寄给她的信件能够安抚她。在学校被视为怪人的艾米丽却深深吸引了帅气男孩阿尔丁。而艾米丽仿佛也不讨厌阿尔丁，向他坦言了父亲信件中断的担忧。两个年轻人在阿尔丁祖母的帮助下，开着阿尔丁祖父的黄色老爷车踏上了去疯人院解救父亲的旅程……

影片借抒情的背景音乐、如雨后那被淡淡忧伤浸润的清新风景、以及埃米丽与男伴阿尔丁拉近关系的冲突以及途中遇到的各种冒险铺垫酝酿整体情绪；通过女主重复的旁白对比女主寻父路上不同的心境与体悟，同时也为影片主题贯穿着积极的灵魂：“这个国家、城市、街道里都弥漫着悲伤，田地里和树林中也弥漫着悲伤，悲伤是无法隐藏的。”“事实只是观点而已，观点是可以改变的。”“生活变化很快，就像暮后的山脉一样起起伏伏。“有一天你起来却不知道怎么到了这里，然后你想，我睡了多久？我去了哪些地方？我怎么会在这儿？然而你什么都想不起来，所有的一切都与你上次醒来的时候不一样了。然后你在照片中开心的笑，只因为你很快乐。”

到底埃米丽寻到了怎样的结果？那就随着小黄车开启一段成长旅程吧！

The first half of the movie seems a bit of monotonous and boring, I can’t help being moved to tears at the end…

Emily is a middle school pupil lives in a foster family. All her schoolmates think Emily is a freak because she rarely speaks, is hard to get along with,offends the teacher, and even intentionally drowns herself once. Only Arden, a shy boy is always caught eyes on her by her mysterious temperament. Emily's biological mother died on one of her birthdays. Her biological father went crazy shortly after that and was institutionalized to the psych ward. Emily keeps in touch with her father through the birthday cards he sends her every year. When her father doesn't send a birthday card on her 16th birthday, Emily decides to take matters into her own hands. Enlisting Arden's help, she runs away, and the pair sets out on a road trip to break her father out of the psych ward.

I think Arden decides to help Emily for two reasons:

1. He likes her and her quiet character, shows kindness to her, sends a book as a birthday gift to her. Though Emily replies her coldness to Arden, treats him like the others.
2. The morning that Emily askes Arden, his parents were quarreling, and his father even had punched his head. Maybe he already has the idea of escaping from his parents in his mind for a long time, and just that morning, Emily gives him a sound reason and his grandmother also encourages him, providing everything he needs for their runaway.

Emily knows nothing about the second reason. She thought Arden maybe look more innocuous than the others; and maybe he is just interested in her skin and body, which is as shallow as the others. Yet Emily has no choice because she needs one's help in her plan of rescuing her father, and Arden is the only one she knows in that city.

As their journey progresses, Emily and Arden must depend on each other as they learn about life, love, loss, and letting go.

Emily's world collapsed suddenly when Mr. Goulding, the Director of the psych ward told her the fact. Her father was volunteered to stay here, not by any duress，which Emily can’t accept. How her father, the one she loves so much, could leave her behind as an orphan, letting her face the malevolence of the world alone as a 14 ages child. She doesn’t understand. She feels angry and grief so deeply. Mr. Goulding is very gentle and kind, tries to explain more, so Emily could be comforted. Even the reason sounds like a series of philosophical enlightenments.

Yet I like every word of those sayings from Mr. Goulding,

“I often think the world turns out inside, Emily. People send the ones of physically and mentally innocent to me.

Have you read Plato? He wrote a great piece of poem——the Allegory of the Cave.

All the people are sitting a row in the cave, staring at the shadow flaming on the wall. For them, the shadow's the reality. One man frees him out, and finds a path out to the light. He’s down on the sun, and he’s enlightened. This man walks back to the cave, back into the shadow, back to free people. This man who saw the light, instead of basking in it, returned to help the others, which is according to Plato. A philosopher, this man is your father.

The problem with the shipping people out of the darkness, is that the philosopher himself is blinded by the glared sun, or by grief, can loss the graben of what is the real, and what is the illusion.

This place is a cave for many people.”

This movie has a happy ending. Emily and Arden find her father in her grandfather’s sea house. Emily forgives her father, and she doesn’t mention any clue of those horrible foster experiences in the past two years. They make an agreement that her father, as a writer will live in the sea house, and Emily will go back to Mrs. Joan, a sort of nice foster mother lately.

There are so many beautiful Irish sceneries in the movie.

One more plot moved me into tears at the end. In her grandfather’s old sea house, Emily finally asks Arden why he would take those hardships and dangers to help her? For any shallow purpose? Arden goes angry and leaves Emily alone in the house. But later when Emily says to Arden that she doesn’t want to go back to the house because of the complain on her father, Arden says to Emily,

“We can leave anytime if you want.”

Emily replies to him this time, “Thanks for coming with me, Arden.” Arden smiles shyly and scratches his hair a little bit, and says “You’ve welcome.”

When they walk toward to the house where her father is in, and also the car of Arden parks, Arden holds Emily’s hand and says,

“Come on. Why not say something about me to your dad.” ——What avirtuousquality!!! The very first time, Emily willingly does as what Arden says.

I see little piece of heartfelt seen of pure emotion. Story takes turn and some seen are just not what you want or unnecessary, but this story strictly tells us that emotions of human beings may be complicated, and the reason for the complexity is just simple:

We pay so much effort or even a whole life, just want to see we are loved by the one who we love.

Emily has found she is loved by her father who she loves. How about ours?

《我叫埃米莉》

不太合群的艾米丽从小被同学嘲笑，得到了父母的关爱，她在父亲那里找到了存在的快乐，一次意外母亲去世，父亲不负悲痛逃避现实，选择当精神病人来逃避一切，包括艾米丽。

艾米丽被领养在其他人家里，对她很好，但她不接受，也无法感觉爱。她一心只希望回到父亲身边。以为只要有父亲在一切都会回来，像小时候一样。

她的同学，一个家庭同样不幸福的男孩喜欢她，跟她一起走上逃家的路程，他们从陌生到熟悉，彼此了解，遇到困境去解决，她开始慢慢打开自己，开始发现除了自己悲痛生活之外的世界。

直到她发现父亲其实是主动住进精神病院，主动选择离开的，她不能理解，她觉得她仅存的幸福被带走了。

男孩在这路途中一共救了她三次，第一次是偷超市的早餐，第二次是用枪赶走了流氓，第三次，艾米丽接受不了父亲主动离开她的事实，跳进海里，当她往上游，最后抓到一只手把她拉上岸，那个人不是父亲而是那个男孩，他喊“你疯了吗？！你把我带到这里的，我特么在乎你的死活！”那一刻她释然了。艾米丽从那个被自己封闭的悲伤的茧里破壳而出了，她感受到了山，海，天空，咸咸的空气，还有男孩对她的关心。

原来，她一直困在小时候的爱里，随着父亲的离开她被锁在里面。

终于，她对悲伤对父亲的爱的执着，放手了。她亲吻了男孩，她突然感受到寄宿家庭里的爱，她说琼肯定担心死我了。

Fact is a point of view. 既然悲伤是事实，死亡是事实，我们无法掩饰，那么就改变看待它的view，超越事实是对我们对待事实的态度。

(有一个画面特别美好，前一晚赶走流氓险些丧命后，他们在大海边的帐篷里醒来，海浪阵阵，他们走到海边，并排站着望向海，艾米丽问：吃早饭吗？这一幕莫名的感动，让我感受到一种存在本身的生命力，活在当下的美，平静却无比震撼。)